Random thoughts

I'm getting bored, a little bit insane, and unproductive each passing day and I'm not sooooooo liking this *sobs* My daily routine now sucks more than ever--- sleep at around 2 or 4am (depends on the bed's capacity to seduce me), wake up at 11 am, brunch, do a "little" household chore, watch TV until my eyeballs finally got out from their sockets, surf the web for a good couple of minutes, then back to the TV, perform another "set" of household chores, catch the news while having dinner, do some "channel surfing," and finally capping the night off in front of the computer. That's how lame, boring, and senseless my life is for the last couple of days. I keep on telling myself that I need to do something "worthwhile" at least once a day just to break its ordinariness-read a book, watch a movie, or write a "decent" piece of literary crap yay hehe. Actually I'm planning to make one a while ago but I ended up listening to my phone's mp3 instead. Tsk, no inspiration yet. Sheesh.

Oh, by the way I just watched When in Rome a while ago haha!Outdated huh?I know haha Anyway, it's your usual chic flick/feel-good movie, nothing much to rave about...ah, wait---I totally believe the movie's soundtrack is GORGEOUS! What else? I'm also hooked with Ugly Betty Season 3 nowadays hahaha (but I have no plans of downloading the whole series). And....oh, I ran out of stories to tell haha That only means one thing: I NEED AN EXCITING LIFE ASAP

Great, it's drizzling outside. I'm hungry. My spirits remain high which means sleeping by 12 is next to impossible.Aaaaaah, I want to get rid of my dark under eye circles (yes, I'm getting a little bit conscious now with my appearance harhar). I'm on the verge of bankruptcy. I need chocolates, oh but that would only stimulate me more right? Hmm, okay I'll get a cold glass of milk instead.

Haaaay...being unemployed and being confined in the house for 24 hours is very intoxicating. Just look at my situation to get a grip of the "side effects" of overstaying in the house.

St. Paul, if ever you're reading this (which is very impossible), please do give me a call. I'm getting desperate each day. Suicidal even.

Chos! of course I didn't mean the last sentence. Silly.

Sleeping beauty wannabe

The worst thing in the world is to try sleep and not to.- F. Scott Fitzgerald                                                                       

I love sleeping just like anybody else. I grab every chance to sleep-while waiting, traveling towards my destination (especially if it's a long-drive or even a 20-minute nap inside a jeepney on my way home), few hours after eating, and since I'm working on a graveyard shift, after finishing my work (okay, not true at all times hehe).

But falling asleep and sleep per se are two different issues for me.

I always have a hard time falling asleep. There are many times that lying in my bed for a couple of hours does not guarantee me a ride to dreamworld instantly nor an unlit room helps me to succumb to sleep. In fact, sleeping in an unlit room unleashes the chicken out of me as thoughts of monsters, ghosts, and other scary-looking creatures haunt me, thus forcing me to open the lights once more. I told my registered-nurse friends about this and they gladly gave me tips on how to fall asleep--- taking a warm bath, avoiding adrenaline rush activities, eating chocolates or drinking coffee few hours before bedtime, drinking warm milk, achieve a "specific bed time," and even rearranging my room to give me that "cozy" feeling. At times, their suggestions work, but more often than not, it doesn't.

sleep like a baby...how i wish! www.babyphotospictures.com

The problem worsens by the time I started working on the graveyard shift.  

Sleeping in the middle of the afternoon on the months of April up until now  is like having my own taste of inferno on earth! My room's ventilation is very poor and I would end up waking up every hour all sweaty (I don't have an airconditioning unit and the electric fan, in its full blast, is of no help). I get cranky since an additional problem occurred, so I decided to tell my mother about this dilemma. Upon consulting with their in-house nurse, she bought me this tiny pink pill. I don't know if it's really a sleeping pill or just an anti-depressant. Anyhow, the pill is effective. But I only take it when needed---like twice a month. I'm all good and feels refreshed after achieving a straight nine-hour sleep. Happiness, indeed. 

can't sleep?you're not alone

www.sleeping-with-a-sleeping-disorder.com

But since I'm not allowed to take this pill everyday, I have to suffer all over again the curse of sleep deprivation, or at least, close to it. Like I said earlier, aside from falling asleep, it's also a struggle for me to achieve a straight and deep sleep since I always end up waking every hour or so---regardless of the weather. And so I begin to wonder why there are people who can easily fall asleep in five seconds in ANY, and I mean ANY, position while I cannot lose consciousness despite lying in a more comfortable  position.

And you know why I am ranting?                                                

Almost two and a half hours of sleep.

And my head starts to feel heavy...dammit!